It's actually happening. My Dad is actively dying. No longer alert- witty or wise, he lies quietly in a bed with oxygen running through his nasal cavity.
The call came late Thursday that he was suddenly having a decline. He had a very restless week- impulsively standing up and then falling over- not taking direction or giving warning- being unsatisfied with most everything. From being quiet and sleeping 20 hours/day to now no longer awakening.
As a daughter, my first reaction was grief and sadness- I've been one of the fortunate ones to have had my parents so much of my life, yet watching one decline ever-so-slowly and to be so terribly confused that a visit a few weeks back, he couldn't recognize me or even place me in relationship.
Surrendering a parent takes some special courage when you have so admired and adored them your entire life. God has known his deeds to advance the Kingdom of God. It is now His time and Dad's time to work out the "when" of this all.
I WILL miss him tremendously-even that confused funny wit of his that I have noted in this blog site. As I've written before- God is going to love him. Peaceful Passage, Ralph, "well-done good and faithful servant!"
Donna, I read your notes and it was astonishingly heart felt and heart rendering! I am so sorry about the whole situation with your mom not knowing you and now the loss of your father here on earth.
ReplyDeleteIf you'd like, please come and hang out here for a while. It's quiet, (so far) and there is ice cream and even babies coming really soon.
God bless and be with you and give you peace!
Joy and Love
Maggie